This time last week I was at the lowest point in my life. All our plans for Christmas has to be cancelled because the weather outside was horrid!

See I live in a rural farming community in upstate NY and on Friday the 23rd of December we had a variety of weather it rained then went below freezing then snowed and we had super bad wind and the temp outside was in the negative’s.

Because of the super cold weather our cars would not start and our driveway was an ice rink. So there was no way for anyone to get to our house for dinner on Christmas Eve. This is when my downward spiral really sunk in. Usually I can shake off the sad depression but this time I could not shake it and I was sadder than I have ever been. The holidays had caught up to me, lots of changes at work and then this. By the time Christmas had come on the 25th I was in such a horrible sad headspace that even a walk to the local store was not helping. I was short with everyone around me and I could not shake this depressed feeling.

I knew right then that it was time to call a professional because I had cried more in 72 hours than I had in 72 months. I was able to get an appointment with a therapist right away.

It was at this moment in my life that I wanted to publish my journey with depression to let everyone know that it is ok to let people know when you are not okay. If I can help just one person than this will help my heart.

I am working on myself and when I come out on the other side of this I will be a better, stronger version of myself.

I will post here what I post on my social media sites, LinkedIn, Facebook and Instagram. It is important for us to talk about our struggles because I can tell you my tribe came through in a big way for me. This includes my incredible wife, my family, my managers at work and my friends.

The one thing I am learning is that I need to give myself patience, grace, love and laughter!